I was playing animal crossing with cheesey and he was over in my town but I had to go. But I didn’t want him to have to leave, so I just plugged my ds in and left it open. I finally came back a few hours later and saw that both red lights were blinking. I forgot to make sure it was plugged into the wall.
I don’t want to talk to resetii at all in this game that was way to close.
I don’t think I’ve ever posted this. It was part of my Christmas and birthday gift from Cheesey.
Whenever I miss him or want to be with him I pick it up. I love it so much.
This is the best gift I have ever gotten, and anytime I start to doubt my feelings for him, just in the slightest, this changes it and fills me with a longing to be with him. Just look at those eyes, those are the cutest little eyes you could dream of. Oh and i really love the little imperfections around the edges, where he took scissors and cut it by hand. I know they were his hands, and I know that sounds weird but it Just makes it so much more special to me. My boyfriend cut this out just for me, and it makes me so happy. Just calling him my boyfriend makes me happy, I’m not ashamed of that at all anymore. (I’m just not comfortable telling anyone I know yet.)
Nearly every night since I’ve gotten it, I’ve slept with it next to me, sometimes even on my chest, I’m surprised I haven’t bent it in my sleep yet. I still feel the same every night even if I’m not feeling that great. I give my cheesey a kiss goodnight, and I long for the day that I can give my other cheesey a kiss goodnight. Oh and thank you to everyone who was concerned a about my last post and reblogged or talked to me on Skype. I know I’m not the best at replying but I just want to let you all know it means a lot that you were concerned and I’m sorry to have worried a few of you to. Last night I had a full nights worth of sleep and I woke up 10 mins before my alarm feeling amazing. I think I just needed some sleep that’s all. Plus I won’t be so over stressed at work because they’re finally hiring back more people so its not understaffed anymore. I won’t be doing the work of three people anymore. Things are starting to get better.
…really all I wanted to do was show off this amazing gift but I may have said a bit more. I’ll stop now and go to bed sorry.
Woop.
I’m going to type some words because I feel like it sorry. It’s alright to scroll past.
But, I haven’t been able to sleep well for about a week now, I just lie here and panic inside. I don’t know what to do. Well I do know what I need to do but to scared to do it.
It’s been over half a year and I haven’t told anyone offline about cheesey. I know I want to spend my life with him, and I want to be with him right now, but I’m to scared to tell anyone. I knew as soon as we became a couple that I was going to hurt someone. Either him, or someone in my family, I don’t know who but it’s going to happen and it’s been building up. I’ve been stressed about it which is giving me insomnia and last night I had the first anxiety attack I’ve had in years. I’ve almost been tempted to just wake my parents up at night and tell them just to get it over with it’s getting really bad.
I know we won’t be able to take our relationship to the next level until I do this, I just don’t have the courage or self esteem or really just the ability to explain myself without tripping over my words and not being able to talk.
It’s even getting to the point where Ive been wishing these horrible situations would have happened to me, like if I had abusive parents or things like that. That way it would be easier just to get out and leave. But I don’t and I love it here and no one should even think things like that.
I don’t know how to explain that I love him, and that I can’t change who I am. It’s not even the Intimacy I care about I just want to be in the same room as him. Cuddling up with him under a blanket as the rain hits the window watching a money or playing a game or reading or anything. That’s all I want right now,
But I don’t know how to explain it.
I don’t know what to do and every day I put this off is another day of life without him and I’m scared I’m going to run out of time.
Sorry this probably didn’t even make since I just wanted to get it out hoping maybe it will help. I don’t know why anyone follows this blog anymore. It’s just daring do and everyone’s and a while a pointless vent like this while everyone se has real problems and I’m to scared to say a few words.
((Totally canon to this blog.))
WHAAA ALKGJEALKGE;KGAKEG;KLJELKJ YOU DREW THIS OHWOW THIS IS AMAZING I DONT KNOW WHAT IT IS BUT ITS AMAZING .
Lovely: I… I can’t move.
Rain: …. i-i think her l-legs lock up w-when she falls a-asleep… i-its tugging on m-my mane.
Lovely: Why do we have to be so soft?
Rain: i-i dont think i c-can do t-this for eight h-hours… h-help.
I drew a thing but im to tired to finish drawing it and im scared if i keep going ill mess it up because it looked really adorable until i added color.
Gadgets mechanical legs must become really stiff when she falls asleep, not quite as flexibel as the other ponies leg. I guess these two are going to be squished together for a few hours.
the most graceful of birds.
SLOW MOTION TENNISBALL WADDLE
LOOK AT THIS MAJESTIC BEAST
JUST LOOK AT IT
KAJSHAKJSBHKAJBSJKS
OH MY GOD
(Source: tootricky, via ghostlysugar)
…I just wanted to cut down a tree in my village.
….Thats all i want.
…Why cant i have one.
